122: General Public Note to Myself
Dear Future Me,
I’m sorry I didn’t post as much as I wanted to in the last … month? Honestly, I wanted to post a lot more. I wanted to post about every little thing I observed, saw and experienced myself, and wanted to write a lot more in my notebook. Sadly, people at school will ask to read my notebook and will be sorely disappointed to see that less than fifteen pages of three hundred are filled, and that is already disappointing me as I write this because, eurgh. I just don’t have the time, and I really wanted to write.
Though when you get above 90% in all your subjects at school you’ll come back, read this and forgive me. Because as always, as you’ll always repeat to yourself and myself and all our other selves: in order to succeed, one must sacrifice one for the other (or something like that, I can’t remember, it’s past my bedtime [yes I set a bedtime for myself. I haven’t stayed up very late for a while, yes]).
Future me, I just wanted to let you know that I’m sorry. I’ve neglected all the other tabs that I have on our blog. I’ve neglected Aesthetica, Today I’ve Learned…, Quotes, and all the others, especially Saved Items. I haven’t ‘saved’ anything since December last year. I’m really sorry about that. I was so focused on posting everyday that I forgot to preserve my other memories. I’m really sorry about that.
So I just basically wanted to let you know that from this day on (Saturday 23 January 2016) that I will be updating all those tabs regularly. No one really views them except for myself, yourself, our selves. But really, this blog is for your own personal viewing, and if others want to come and have a look at things, they’re free to. This is a public blog and well, it feels good to share a part of your soul with other people.
And this post gives me cause to think that I have a bipolarity, a bipolar disorder, multiple personalities disorder, I don’t know. I always refer to myself, yourself, our selves as different people, as if we really were different people made by different circumstances and choices. I don’t know, I don’t want to go too deep into something I don’t quite want to understand just yet because I’m occupied with other things in my life.
What else did I want to say? Nothing really. I guess it’s an apology. Wake up and be hard at work, and always remember what your true end goal is for the next two years, and then after that, create new end goals for yourself. And so on and so forth as human life continues, yes.